december blue butterfly

As the year comes to close, I want to thank all of you for being there.

This year was very dramatic for me.  
I had this "thunder" baby, and I really worked very very hard from the next week I had a baby.

Last night I had a dream about what happens when you die.
In my dream, everyone's eyes became blue when you die and then you fly as a blue butterfly.
I immediately woke up and thought of my father who died without seeing our baby.

My father asked me about having a baby for the first time and the last time in his bed a few days before his death.  I didn't know what to say to him and I said "It's okay, father."

I sometimes see my father's face expression in our baby and it makes me feel warm.  
It's like baby Thunder continues in footsteps of my father.


Wish you very happy holidays.

Thunder Love

So now I am with this baby boy who is three week old.
I call him Thunder.
In fact we gave him a Japanese name with chinese characters meaning "thunder" and "express".

He surprised us and doctors with his 10 pound size when he came. 
None of us didn't know that he became that big.

I was thunder-shocked by not only his size but also his thick hair outside of his ears.  

The day we first took him to a pediatrician at his day 5, thunder and rain welcomed us.

One thing that surprised me.
For the first time in my life, I wanted to be a housewife for Thunder. 
One day I wondered if I could bake him nice warm carrot cakes in the future if I kept working like this.
That thought made me cry at day 7.

Now I'm listening Thunder Love by Little Dragon at my jewelry studio.
I think he will get used to the fact that he has a hard working mom. 

welcome to NY!

 

My sister and mother are here in NY for a week!  

My sister goes to Diamond District to run errands for me.  I feel like I'm a mom who sends a child for her first errand in her life.  Everything is so different from Japan for them.

After 13 years of living in NY, I tend to forget what it was like to live in overseas. 

To me, my mother is way too polite even to strangers.  I just hope people will be nice to her while she's here so that she will like NY.